I really want to move out when I graduate but big responsibilities also involve doing so such as I have to get my own place, get a job, pay my own things it really actually scares me as well but I really don’t know what scares me more, being here in this house having no freedom what so ever, not choosing what I want for myself instead people choosing what to do and what not to do for me. I actually feel like an animal trapped in a cage in this house and I’ve been living like this my whole life it is really depressing and sad.
It kinda sucks how some of my friends always mention me as the mean one or when some of the people I knew back in the days ask me when did I turn so mean? I get it I know I’m mean but that’s only because I’m sick of being nice to people then they turn to assholes. Either way I’m only mean if you ever did something bad to me. Other then that i can be the nicest person ever if you are to me. I know I should give people a second chance of forgive and blah blah blah but I hardly ever do. Like why give someone another chance when they already had one chance before? I feel like if they did it that one time they’re gonna keep on doing it. Heh but whatever I’m kinda getting use to being the so call bitch to everyone.
As a bartender lol well not really but I work in the “bar era” selling beer and drinks and what not at this music production warehouse in L.A :p Ha sweet :D Anyways we will be hosting a metal show there! Hopefully we could get pretty big bands to play such as HeXen, Exmortus or Witchaven :3
Yea i’ll admit it I miss you but I’m not gonna tell you. Why? because you don’t miss me and you probably hate me… you don’t want to do anything with me. Yea thats why all of this me missing you and still having feelings for you is pointless.
I fucked up once again like I always do. Yep ima regret this later on more drama and more feeling like shit.
In 7th grade one of my guy friends asked one of my friends that is a girl and that was one of my close friends if I was lesbian if I actually liked guys lol xD
I wouldn’t mind giving my life to someone who deserves it or someone who would actually enjoy it more then I do.